dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true

So they finally emailed me.

Sometimes I feel like the whole world is against me, making me fight for what I want.
And then, the clouds open....yet there is no sun.

I hate rejection. I didn't even realize how much I wanted it until I didn't get it.

But then again, maybe this is His way of telling me to grow up - to stop staying in my comfort zone. Try new things. Life isn't always going to be the same as if it were still high school. But now, unfortunately, I suddenly have no urge to be apart of anything anymore. Not even other classes. 

"Nicole get's everything in life she wants."

Huh. Yeah, that's real funny. SHUT UP. Don't give me that crap. I'm a human too.

I just didn't want you to be ashamed of me. But now, I think you were right; I never really was that good. That's why you put me where you did, huh?
Who am I kidding. It's not for me.

it still hurts though.


  1. You realize this simply means one thing: you get to party with me during football games instead of being away from me. WOOOOOOO. (: Don't worry, you're on to bigger and better things anyways.

  2. Whoa, I was going to say the exact same thing Rachel said!
    But it sounds like we should go for some cupcakes sometime this week. I love you. :)

  3. YOU didn't make it in? YOU of all people?

    that college is so full of themselves.